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What IfWhat if you had succeeded last year
Took enough to make your world go black
Those three words I would never hear
The friendship we wouldn't have got back

What if I hadn't asked to see you
Had already moved on
Did you want to see me too
Or were you already too far gone

What if you hadn't decided I was important again
I was only a vague memory
Where would we have needed to begin
For you to remember me

What if we hadn't got back together
Would we be better friends
Forget about you, I could never
I don't want this to be the end

I wanted to tell you,Don't listen to the words that come out of my mouth,
They're lies...

Watch my action the'll tell you the truth..

A Lover's PleaHow can I explain the things I've done?
How can I let myself do what I do?

I can't stop thinking about you, though I don't know why.
I can't stop checking if you're safe.

Why can't I just let you go?
Why must my heart still beat your name?

I see your face and my eyes water.
I look at the pictures of us and my breath catches.

Why can't I live by that saying by Dr. Seuss?
"Don't cry because it's over; smile because it happened."
Why must my heart break from the happiness that you brought

I promise not to cutI promise not to cut
To bleed to scar to hurt
But this feeling's boiling up inside
I'll try but things get worse
I can't take it anymore
I must hurt
Relapse

I promise not to cut
To numb to give to sink
But my head is throbbing
full of thoughts and confused emotions
I try but it's all my fault anyways
I should suffer
Relapse

I promise not to cut
To drown to harm to break
But I am worthless anyways
What's the point in my existence
I only take up space
I should bleed
Relapse

I Wish You the BestI hope you know that I still wish you the best,
Because at one time, I put you above all the rest.
Though the communication may be gone,
I don't want it to be that way for long.
But I'll respect your wishes, give you your space,
Even though I just want to see your face.

Days turn to weeks, weeks to months,
And I haven't seen you, not even once.
How could we spend these years together,
For you to say that you want to see me...never.

I was your first, and I wanted to be your last,
But alas, everything is now a thing of the past.
Now there's nothing left for me here,
And the time I sign my life away grows near.

I keep a smile on my

Just say goodbyeYou want to know my story
but are you really sure?
It's not like you can save me
not like you're the cure.

My story's on my body
it's hidden from the world.
To all of them I'm happy
just another girl.

I've got to say

Leave me alone, let me be
Please let go, can't you see.
I don't want anyone to watch me bleed and cry.
Just leave me alone, just say goodbye.

It's all hidden from them all
The pain inside my head.
And because I never told
it's always been like that.

There's nobody I know
that could ever understand.
I'm lost in all of my thoughts
lost in no-mans land.

Just go away

Leave me alone, let me be
Please let go, can

LoveIt doesn't come easy
It doesn't come quick
It can make you feel happy
Or make you feel sick
It can make you feel powerful
It can make you feel "hip"
But can also make you fall
And make you lose your grip
When you meet him, you wait for the words
The words you hope are true
When he kisses your lips and tenderly says
"I'll always love only you"

My secretLet me tell you a secret
So listen carefully...
If you
if you take my hand
but let me lead
If you
If you would just trust me
when I say I'm not like them
If you
If you show me mercy
by wiping the tears of my cheeks when I'm sad
If you
If you let me feel home, safe and protected
just hug me tight and never let go
If you
If you would just have faith in me
Then I promise you one thing
I promise you will never ever have to be alone again
I promise you that love...

You Are GoneYou smile but it's only a picture.
You laugh but it's only in my memory.
You kiss me but it's only a forgotten possibility.
You hold me in waking and sleep, but it's only a dream left behind.

Do you remember the day we met?
Do you remember the jokes we used to make?
Do you remember when I cried and you kissed me?
Do you remember when I fell asleep in your arms?

Sometimes I look at your picture and I cry.
Sometimes I relive our dates in my head.
Sometimes I think of all the possibilities we had together.
Sometimes I dream that you're still here with me.

But you don't smile at me anymore.
But you and I don't talk, let alone laugh.

ThoughtsI'm so sick of not being perfect
I'm sick of hurting people
I'm tired of doing nothing right
I'm tired of holding back
Let me scream
Let me lash out
Let me show you the other side of me
And try telling me you still know me

Everything confined inside
It builds until I almost burst
My eyes grow heavy
My fingers claw at my arms
Tear out my hair
Twitch for the blade
I hold back
But I can only hold so much

Then I do it again
I screw up
I hurt
I break
And I fall again
Self-loathing is almost a comfort

I often wonder why
Why am I this way
Why am I messed up
Answers won't be found

I'm sick of hating myself
I'm sick of hidin

Percentageswhenever i think,
it's only ten percent you,
whenever i dream,
if it's about you,
i barely ever do,
if i ever fantasize,
it's sometimes you,
but that would be selfish,
so you're not always in those too,

whenever i think,
it's ninety percent us,
whenever i dream,
if ever it's us,
it deserves all my fuss,
if ever i fantasize,
it's mostly about us,
that's always my wish,
in you and i,
i trust

Our Life is Like a BookOur life is like a book
Shall we flip the pages
Look for the number on the bottom
Hey remember when you cheated on me
Let's tear out that page
That time where we kissed
Let's highlight that part
I love your smile
The shimmer in your eyes
What do we do when this book is full?
Is that the end?
Or do we start a new one?
Well darling
Tell me
I don't care for suspense
Or tragedies
Let's keep it a romance
A never ending one

StareI see you over there
Looking at me with just a blank look your face
Not knowing what to say every time you see me.

I think to myself what you could possibly be thinking of
When you're dark brown eyes look at me.

My friend tells me that every time we are in the same room
You look over at me
With that same face expression.

Its killing me so much
Not knowing what you are thinking
Because I need to know
For I may have a little crush on you.

The months have passed by
And this year is coming to an end.
I just need to know one thing
Why have you started to stare at me now and not before when school started?

Was I just invisible to

There's something about you..There's something about you
But I can't put my finger on it
You're different from the rest
But in a good way
I don't know what it is about you
But you pull me in
Maybe it's your eyes, full of happiness
Or your long, wavy hair
It could even be your smile
One that is so big and bright
I don't understand why I feel like this
Every time I see you, talk to you
Or even just imagine you with me
My heart races 10x fast
It only happens when I think of you
You entice me, make me happy
And most of all, you love me back
That must be it.. No one else could love me back as much as you do
No one else would put up with me
I guess that's a

Dream WalkerDream walker
Leave me alone with my thoughts
Leave me alone with my soul
Give me space to find my road
To find my love
If there is a love at all

Dream walker
Give me a beautiful dream
Take nightmares from me
Show me the way and lead me tonight
Rush through the darkness for light

Dream walker
Say what I am
Say what you are
Tell me why we're apart
Take me to stars
I'm out of my mind

Dream walker
Bring her in my dreams
Give me happiness I need
Bring joy to my heart
Before I'm completely done

Dream walker
My life is nothing but dream
All I have isn't real
I'm not able to see
Not able to believe
Not able to live
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To love, but not be in love

by ~The-Asphalt-City, Sep 6, 2012, 12:02:07 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Traditional Fixed Forms

Love me,
But not too much.
And speak to me softly.

And hug me,
though not too much.
but do it ever so often.

It's taken me many years
to find someone
who sees my potential.
And it's taken you,
but a few minutes,
To give me all you have to offer.

But I ask you...
too Love me,
But not too much.
And speak to me softly.

And hug me,
though not too much.
but do it ever so often.

I'm grateful for your affection,
but be respectable towards me.
I shall not love you to greatly
or too less than you do too me.

Should time come to pass,
and feelings aren't the same;
I'll know one's loved and lost me;
Rather this,
than divorce's pain.